February 19, 2010
in an instant, life changes
No hero in your tragedy No daring in your escape No salutes for your surrender Nothing noble in your fate The words drift over me and a sudden rush of emotion hits. I slam my fist down onto the counter top. The physical pain brings the emotional pain. The tears well up. I can only speak for myself, but I suspect there's a point in every doctor's training where one realizes that these are no longer abstract facts one is cramming. There are real lives involved. The stakes have been raised. I just got off the phone with my brother and his wife. What initially was supposed to be an MRI to diagnose a potentially herniated disk, turned out to be a life altering day for all involved. An abnormality was found in the 5th lumbar consistent with a neoplasm. Not what one wants to hear from a back doctor.