I told you so

looking towards the future, we were begging for the past
well we know we had the good things but those never seemed to last
oh please just last

oh and I know this of myself
I assume as much for other people
we've listened to more of life's end gong than the sound of life's sweet bells
was it ever worth it
was there all that much to gain
- by Isaac Brock

     Two of my last rotations were picked for very personal reasons.  One was chosen to be better able to help my son with his condition.  The other was to better help understand my brother's death and process of dying.  Months ago when I signed up for them, my wife warned me.  One rotation was going to be hard enough.  Two of the rotations would be foolhardy.  But doing them back to back was inviting pain.  My wife was absolutely right.  Scabs and old wounds have been torn asunder that might ought to have been better left alone.  Perhaps with the passage of time, there will be a wisdom gained from following this gut feeling.  But for now, there is nothing but pain.

on the interview trail

family medicine

Family medicine is one of the less glamorous specialties.  So how do programs go about attracting people such as myself?  By providing free hotels with views like this.

silence

Silence on my blog means one of three things.  I am very busy.  I don't have much to write about.  Or, I do have things to write about but they're difficult to write.  Lately, it's been a bit of #1 and but now it's transitioning into #3.